Living with alopecia

Well today I will be talking about something that is a sensitive subject for me. I found out I had alopecia in 2010 before I moved to Memphis. Alopecia for those of you that don’t know is a form of balding. I was devastated when I found out and made the decision at that point to cut my hair. I wore my hair very low from that point on for about two years. After about two years I had started working with a stylist initially that gave me scalp treatments and my hair started filling in. Once I determined that I was at the end of the road with this stylist, I started going to a trichologist.  A trichologist is a hair specialist. They are not medically trained but are clinically trained in hair loss and the scalp. I had worked with the trichologist for four years. Well our time has come to an end and I decided to cut my hair and start wearing it low again. It was a hard decision. One that I made due to the fact that I had went four years wearing my own hair minimally.  The crown of my hair is where I had the most hair lost and that area would never fully grow in. The hair would grow in and break off for one reason or another. I felt like I was back in hiding. When I first noticed the hair loss I was wearing hats and wigs regularly. I hate wearing wigs that has never been my thing. Due to this experience, I honestly see the point of wigs now. I had said to myself that if by May my hair was not filled in then I would cut it back down.  Honestly, I got tired and God had already given me the green light on moving forward to cut my hair. I cut my hair this Saturday. I will have pictures up soon on the blog. I ended up with the flu this weekend so I could not get my eyebrows done etc. So, picture will be up soon. It was easier than I expected. I struggled with the decision to do it. I was afraid and it is amazing to me how the old feelings I had in 2010 resurfaced in 2017.  I remember in 2010 walking down Michigan Ave in Chicago crying after a trichologist visit. I had the same experience when I went to the dermatologist in 2010.  I remember thinking God I am about to start my career and I was just told I am going bald. Fear is not of God and I recognize that. It is done. I been looking at myself a lot and I am excited. I am still getting use to having no hair. I have some products I will be using so I am interested to see what my hair does. I do plan on blogging more. I have a new computer so I do not have to attempt to blog at work. So here is to a new year and a new me.